Well this might not be much of a shock to some since I haven't been very active but a lot of shit is happening in my life. I have been trying to bottle it up and try to hide the fact that it all hurts but I can't anymore. I want to smile and be the bubblying person that everyone - I hope - knows me as. Not the one who has been - recently - crying and asking for your help to cheer me up all the time because times are hard for me. I know to some this might seem unfair but I can't... hold it anymore.
In school I'm getting ounched and kicked around. Sometimes just verbally but it's getting more and more pysically each time. Just a small trip here, kick her where-she-can-defo-feel-it there, make sure she cries like a five year old... blah, blah blah. I have actually been like this for just over a year now but I have been hidiong it that much so I can try and possibly, convience myself that it's okay.
I know it isn't and I know I can't live on hiding. But don't worry to much.
- I'm not self-harming
- Not planning of suiciding
- I'm still not emo/goth
- I will finish off ALL RPs and SOME chars beofre leaving
- I will never forget you guys x
I know this will hurt some people more than others and if it was my choice I would stay but I don't want to make all my friends a buddle of depression becuase of me. Hopefully this shall be tempoary and I can get back ASAP but until then I shall be leaving you guys very soon.
I WILL STILL BE HERE TO CHAT TO I PORMISE!
~Redheadedpichu
P.S. I love you guys so much. You helped me avoid doing the oppsite of above.